"Trials and Truths", by Betty L. Drummond, Age 35
Copyright © 1980s thru 1990s
"Prologue"
I had forgotten a lot through my years. Time though has recovered many of my memories. Coming back into my life as little lost puppies, distraught and dirtied by time. I while wandering lost discovered my memories. As I found them, inevitably I felt obligated to make a safe shelter for them, as I waited anxiously for their return. For that reason they did come back, and are now again where they were born, belong, and from where they had strayed. Forever discovering and resting comfortably within me....
"A Child's Cry"
If I lived my life again, spent the time I had to spend, would you close your eyes, and leave me crying?
If you knew where I had been, would you run away and then, leave me standing all alone again?
Would you listen to my heart, could you mend a broken part, would you open up your heart, and let me in?
In these words I say to you, can you understand them to, can you free my mind, and see within?
Though the years have come and gone, yet the feelings are still strong, of a child left alone and crying.
"Hello Hello"
I feel as though I were a mime, standing amongst a crowd.
I show my feeling without voice, and no one hears a sound.
They laugh at my funny faces, and my struggle to be free,
from the invisible walls that hold me, that I can only see.
"The Snake"
A snake in the grass, hides it's past, by the shedding of the skin.
Though it may not last, he will move fast, and shed himself
again.......
"The Damned"
Isolation, standing in demand.
Feeling different, says I am.
With no control, of who I am.
I live my life, to be damned....
"Unfeeling"
My heart breaks, as my mind aches, as I seem not to
care.
My feelings of sorrow are unseen, and thought not to be there.
Yet my heart is engulfed, and pain has no place in a
heart that is full.
I feel what you feel, yet it was already there...
So look twice, at an uncaring soul, because it may
not be as you think.
When a heart is full, your nobody's fool, and feelings are held beneath.
K"no"W
Lost in confusions, fiercely out of control.
Is it an illusion or could it be so?
You may close your eyes, or run and hide.
Depending on which side you lie.
Inconceivably so...
"Forgiven"
Some may say never, some won't change ever.
Interpretations can hold strong, for one who's angry, and sure of being wronged.
Forgiven!
Others have anger for one self, knowing the blame can't be put any where else.
Self injustice can last long, for one who's pain is placed wrong.
Forgiven!
"Evil"
I have seen evil, it looked me in the eye.
I try to stay away, it scares me every time.
Evil has sorrow, and pity for itself.
Evil throws its pain, at everybody else.
Evil is growing, it is looking for a place to stay.
Evil slowly eats, a persons soul away.
Evil can be seen, by who it wants it to see.
Sometimes shining brightly, like a apple in a tree.
"I Pray"
I pray there will be a day that I will be seen for who I am.
Not for who is thought, or wanted, or believed I am.
Hoping to be seen from the eyes of someone who will understand.
Praying it will free me from the words I have written in my own hand.
"Caged"
Within my soul, liberation lies beyond the walls of my being and my dwellings.
Unable to brake through, I am smothering slowly, and painfully, within my existence.
I act to be the one who is loved, by the one who stands before me.
Leaving me weakened, tired and untruthful.
Then I am angered, feeling empty and alone.
Caged within my soul.
"Outer Spaces"
What we see and feel
Sets our frame of mind
Whether it be real
Or made up in our minds
Our line of sight is made
In line of what we see
And what we choose to make
Our own reality!
"The Tide"
Our world is over powering. Its currents can push us along to a tide of destruction. While its forces can drag you down to places you may not return from. Then leave you drowning within yourself. If you are able to pull away, and find your own way through the tide, you are changing its flow, and making a force for others to follow. In not releasing your powers you are changing the current, and weakening the force of the tide.
"Trudging"
Life's not always kind, the pain is less the painful in time.
The heart it hardens, or learns to except.
As we become more, or we become less.
More or less..........
"Silent Cry"
A silent cry is not existing. It is a sound without ears or air to travel. It has been hidden away, locked in a vacuum of non caring souls. Silence, leaves us unknowing, enabling the truth to unfold. Listen for the sound of silence..........
"Break Down"
When there is no guilt, fear or capacity of happiness, there is no justice.
The pain is passed on, and fear is obsolete.
Therefore, with nothing to beware of, there are no boundaries.
With no one being held responsible, there again is no justice.
When we do not learn to break through our frustrations, we then break down, and join in with them.
Anger is an honest feeling:
With out anger, we would not know when to stand strong for what we believe in.
Yet without substance, anger brings us back around, the growing circle of breaking down.
"Freedom"
Freedom is a state of mind, it is a constant working battle.
To gain freedom we must first face and deal with this fact.
Then progress to deal with our anger, guilt, and frustrations.
Hiding from these emotions is a trap, in which we loose ourselves, and eventually our souls.
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